Tuesday, October 07, 2008
~ 9:46 PM ~
just came back from visiting granny. granny has been suffering quite a bit for the past few weeks since she was hospitalised for blood in stools.. just before i left for new york, she went through an inevitable surgery to remove her colon, now shes recuperating at home. but life without one's colon isnt really a pleasant nor easily accepted reality.
granny became so frail and skinny over the past two weeks, it really pained me to see her in this state... though she dosen complain much, the look in her eyes and sunken expression was telling. those eyes seem to convey to me the helplessness and indescribable suffering that shes going through and yet theres nothing i can do to alleviate her suffering.
bodily pain and discomforts aside, im sure granny feels helpless and robbed of her right to live in a dignified manner; requiring assistance when going to the toilet and doing just about every little thing.
life seems bleak for her for a long time to come... and theres absolutely nothing i can do to lessen her suffering except for the occassional visit and company.
this is already too much for me to bear. i dont think i can take it when the day comes for me to bid her farewell. i love her so so much.
0 what say you?
